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Too much

2011-10-25T01:52:00.002+08:00

Pamela needs a talking buddy :('

Or, am I just too free, alone :('

I dont like :('

I want n need to go on a good holiday; break free from this nightmare! :('

I hate all my recent rants and posts :('

Sersiously, wat has become of me :('

What's forever.

2011-10-24T23:18:00.004+08:00

Moments of happiness are temporary.
Memories of fear and hurt are forever.

I can feel myself dead since yesterday, sadly.

Fuz.

2011-10-22T21:35:00.003+08:00

I thgt I've made up my mind e previous time. But, tonight I thgt my previous decision was a mistake :(
After all effort punched in, I feel so worthless and like e past, so not appreciated for.

I'm starting to yield fear for such feelings. It's developing really drastically :(
My heart hurts so much tt I could felt tt it's numb.

Sometimes, like now, I need someone who I cn talk to, love me, pamper me and let me know tt he cares for me and I'm impt.

I just don't want to regret my choice dear. I'm sorry. I fear for my future :('

Ball.

2011-10-18T00:55:00.002+08:00

Ball.

Right.Left.Up.Down

I am not a ball.

I feel more like a lost girl in an ultra big supermarket. I will really just stay right smack in e center; wait for my that someone who cares and loves me; knows that I matter alot to him/her to come find me

Horribly lost right now.

Dear Blog

2011-10-14T16:51:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

i need to talk to someone badly.
ure that someone.
but idk how to start ranting my problems, my heartfelts to u.

not that i dont trust u, but idk how to begin pouring out my sorrows.
im just too taken back about what happened earlier on :(

i dont want to be treated this way.

put up with me for awhile, i hope i wont be here too often.

From this moment.

2011-10-14T13:35:00.007+08:00

Why have you and twitter became my only confidate?
- hurts me.

我开始感觉到很累，很痛心了。就那么一点，也绝望了。
眼泪，渐渐的没了。

Recently, too many events had taken place, all really abruptedly. Im feeling very petrified and confused. The sense of direction is gone. I do not know what i want to do next, should do next, or is going to happen next.

With no work and no one to occupy my time with, im starting to feel really insecure. With everything in more poured out, i thgt i could moved on, well/better. But, was i living in denial?

All i need is more comfort and love from everyone.
Not like this. This pains me.

mind got drifted.

2011-08-09T03:19:00.008+08:00

iris.nicole.chngchng.yannyann.winnie.quvan.wendy.helenhuang
shine.serene

Am i too sensitive or am i just too reluctant/seriously to let go of the tormenting past. Somehow or rather, i feel that i cannot let it all go entirely. Flashbacks of those horrible moments have never failed to upset me from time to time, even till today. Have my emotions and overall feelings been so badly hurt?

I pretended to smile and laugh it off. I tried hard to be strong. I promised to forgo every single bit of the past, after ive vent my anger and frustrations, but.. why?

Forgive and forget. This is really easier said than done. I have already forgiven you, yet i still cannot forget about the miseries that uve brought to me. It had indeed left a really deep etch in my heart somewhere. Sometimes, i start to wonder, am i making the right choices, if my decision is already up? I probably can still back out and turn away right now. But, i love u, my dear :(

I tried hard not to think of it every time. I am beginning to feel fearful and uneasy. I hate this feeling. Im not that magnanimous after all, i guess. Which lady can?

Ive been keeping this to myself for too long. I cannot handle the torture. U said, future will definitely be better because ure a brand new boyf, u will change. Im happily, waiting..and waiting.

Whatever happened now? All seem gone. Im lost, who will bring me out now :((

Holidays in 2011

2011-08-07T08:41:00.008+08:00

With a really bad cramp, it has tormented me the whole night. I just cant fall asleep with the intensifying pain in me.

I went to bed at 4ish, yet woke up as early as 0630hr. What is wrong? I am supposed to be enjoying my holidays. Somewhere in me really misses RWS! Whatever happened to that ambitious pam :(

Nevertheless, the 2 business plans are still in the plan. Will have them all executed after all the thorough plans. I know its not going to be an easy path but i really do have faith in myself. I will pave my way to getting where i wish to be at. Speaking of which, it does bring some pain to my heart.

Somehow, sometimes, i feel like im a lonesome. I guess thats me, pamela. An independent woman, many deemed :)

I happened to find this online, and i felt that, subconsciously, timidly, hypocritically, i am like her too:-

When people joke around saying you’re ugly/fat/underestimated my ability&capability,

on the outside i will just laugh it off,

but in the inside…

Yep, y am i so mean? Thats probably due to the many different stresses that have been incessantly hitting me hard; reality in all societies.!

On a brighter note, pamela is gg on many holiday trips this year :)

Malaysia
Ho Chi Minh, Vietnam
Bangkok, Thailand! (always wanted to go over for an exploration!)
Phuket, Thailand
Last but not least, TAIWAN!

Ultra yayness! :)
Hopefully the next time rd, i cn travel out of SEA.!

august is here.

2011-08-02T23:14:00.005+08:00

SSSSSSSSSSIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHH!

August is already here. Time and days passed by so quickly! I have not rejunvenated myself well enough. Everything seems undone; all halfway hanging there. Whatever happened?

Got to really buck up this month! Make the impossible or possible!
And, poor me. Broke, soon. HOW!?!

Anyway, yay to some buys and indulgence:-

YAY! First want attained! :)
The long desired pink polaroid!

Another watch to blend into my collection :)
My first Kenneth Cole watch! Teehee!

From my sweet sweet love :(( Thanks baby.

August shall be an eventful month i guess since trip to Hochiminh and Bangkok are planned.! Totally cant stop myself from not being hyped up.! :D

Stress and whatsnot, please go away! Pamela......................!

Dilemma.

2011-07-18T02:07:00.001+08:00

Somehow or rather, i felt that im caught in between. Am i digging my own graveyard.
Petrified, i am ;(

Im sorry.

This year.

2011-07-17T16:03:00.016+08:00

will i have a celebration on my 23rd? :)

MY 21st (2009)

im 21.

lovely ppl that night.

my 1st chin chin picture :)

they played games like this: ice cream competition!

many many pizzas.

w taxigang, w love and teary eyes.

yum yums.

21 yakults!

from taxigang! <3

such great reminisce.
after 8 years, ive another bday celebration :)
specially organised by denvers <3
that was prolly the last best gathering, last training that ive, though.

Listen to my heart, truly.

2011-07-17T15:31:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, i just want people around me to give me the support that i need. Dont run me down, dont scrutinize and judge me. It hurts me terribly :/

2010

2011-01-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

在２０１０我拥有了一位很爱我，很疼我的男朋友。
在２０１０我学会了为爱负责。
在２０１０我也学会了不能对自己最心爱的人，乱发脾气。

这一年里，我感受到种种的爱已。　
我的ｄｅａｒ给我的关怀，对我的包容，陪我度过许许多多的喜怒哀乐，都是没有别人可以给我的。
这种感觉就是我所谓的幸福。
ｓｉｍｐｌｉｃｉｔｙ　ｉｓ　ｂｅａｕｔｉｆｕｌ　＜３

我很珍惜我身边／和他的每一切。
今天，我很不相应为我发脾气，不体谅他，惹他伤心，失望，害怕和难过，　而失去了他。
我真的只错了。后悔了。

monday blues.

2009-10-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

i see the difference, but im still holding on :D

from me to u, pamela.

2009-10-19T01:21:00.003+08:00

Allow time to heal almost everything pam :D
Im sure u will grow stronger some day, at least after surviving this many ordeal of urs?
Know what, no more terrible headaches, no more fear, no more crying.
Live stronger and be more bold in making decisions.
You are the director of ur life, rmb?
Just keep going, have faith in yourself (:

Nothing is impossible. Impossible to nothing. If theres a will, theres way!

Far far away.

2009-10-12T22:30:00.002+08:00

Imma make time for myself to do what i like :D Im doing it now because of the phrase, if there is a will, there is way, and nothing is impossible. Im living it up as much as possible!

Anyhow, i feel numb.

The barrier.

2009-10-12T02:13:00.002+08:00

Somehow, i feel pretty disturbed lately. Daddy says im growing up and i know/have my expectations for certain things, for instance, getting the basic respect from people around me, giving in my best when im doing anything, especially for the things that i like (: And, i cant deny that its really true! Hopefully this doesnt make me look too defensive which is how im feeling right now.
Somehow, also, i feel that im growing up too fast. So fast that i cant really accept all the rapid changes around me . This is pretty saddening.
Somehow, i really miss cheer. Ive got no idea what im doing right now in cheer :/ Idling, aimless, unhappy, disappointed, undesirable. I wish for all the fun ive with my sisturs! :D Seems long gone.
Somehow, i feel myself really well behave for the last whole week! I thought i deserve something for being such a good girl! Imma reward myself with an exquistive looking titus watch! :D Yay! Im with RWS for a week, enjoyed the orientation, love the training sessions. Its been like forever since ive learnt something i guess. I dont feel at all wasted.

Independent survivor, pamela <3

blackjack pamela.

2009-09-28T01:58:00.003+08:00

Sweetest 21st <3

A simple year, a simple life with unconditioned love from my lovely family members and awesome friends. What more can i ask for when these simple affairs are more than enough to make me melt? :D I really love and value everything of this to the bits. They are irreplaceable.

supergirl speaks.

2009-09-26T01:04:00.003+08:00

sacrifices coupled with reminiscence are nothing close to any form of equivalent that is ever replaceable <3

rants for tonight.

2009-09-24T02:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i just envy those who have a partner. They make me really want to be attached ;(

This is going to be my last week slacking. Kind of hate this feeling. But, im even more sick of mopping around, idling around every single day.

I love my daddy. Love him love him love him, just love him! Daddy is always the best <3

Its time to train harder for cheer. Im going back to basics again :D Well, at least i feel myself learning and improving. I cant let my superman down with my lousy skills! I cant drain muska out! :D

No more celebrations, no venue :/ A simple affair is all tt i want :)

I will lose that few pounds and clumps of fats. I want to say a big goodbye to those cellulites too!

Imma pull up my spike in no time! Imma hit my stretch to stretch soon! Imma learn how to do a double twist/x-out and even better an x-out full :D:D:D:D:D

I must learnt to wait for height! I want to be more patient! I have and want to fly up high!

I love xy for being so nice to me, loving me (: Helping me out with many many things, etc etc etc. Really appreciate them.

It time for me to have a good haircut :D

Okayy, time for bed.

Goodnight earthhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

goodbye to happy meals.

2009-09-22T13:46:00.003+08:00

Im going to be 1 year older, again! I am feeling rather excited about it but at the same time, a little upset. I hate to grow up. I can feel myself ageing. Helping to populate the ageing populated Singapore! Anyway, this is going to be the first and last time that i am going to organise a birthday partyyyyy!! Its really taxing i swear. So much of research and prep work. Omg. Till now, its barely even settled. Super pathetic.

Yayness to the RW Casino! :D:D:D
Its going to be one of my favourite hangout place in the near future i suppose. I hope i dont regret my this decision. We have to take up, try different things/jobs/food whatever when we are young arent it? Heh! Its a pretty awesome opportunity anyway! 3 GO to me for getting this job!!!!!!!

Short post to kill my boredom <3

bad blood.

2009-09-13T23:37:00.002+08:00

procrastination kills.

laziness make it worst.

pretendance and arrogance just cant make it any better, sadly.

serenity.

2009-09-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

Its time to feel motivated to learn ;D
Ive finally got things done and planned.
Hopefully things will go by my way!
That shouldnt make me feel intimidated.
Its my motivation motor, arent it?
Ive to learn to trust and play along!
Ive to show and get applaud.
Ive to be someone that i always wanted to be, and thats myself!
Im no push over (:

Pamela got to fly up there, fly up high :D:D:D:D

(Still waiting pretty silently for supergirls return)

Dementia kills.

2009-09-12T02:52:00.003+08:00

This is really really touching. Im still tearing after watching it for the @#$%^& time.

SKM All Star Entry Video

2009-09-10T00:27:00.002+08:00

Special thanks to:
Matt Ellis (USA Staff)
Jahmaal Sawyer (USA staff)
Harlis Muska (Denvers Cheerleading)
NONO (Taiwan Monster)
Xiao Gao (Taiwan Vanung University)

I want to progress further from here.
Who is willing to train with me, help me to this? :p
Supergirl is awaiting for her returns - Current status: Dead.

my team, my family, my 2nd home.

2009-09-08T02:31:00.009+08:00

This is the Denvers Family :D
Our family portrait.

This is Denvers' Taxi Gang :D
My favourite people and sisters.

I love BB for being everything :D Im glad that ive talked things out with you the other time (: 881 always.
I love XY for being there when i needed someone to talk to, all the little little chats/secrets shared on msn! <3
I love Sharon for always being by my side rooting for me, all the htht, love and many more! Tyty G3.

Our new trg tee, nicely designed by Sharon :)

I ruined the almost picture perfect picture :(
(just look at my low v ._.)

The beauties!

And, the beast! Hahaha! The strong men!

Lastly, Denvers lead the way, all the way! :D

Expectations.

2009-09-07T02:59:00.014+08:00

Blogging to kill my insomnia. Taking some time off to reflect on certain issues. Ive not been exactly very happy these few days. There are so many things that i want to do and achieve but ive no idea how to work my way there. I feel that i need the chance and time to learn and to practice. Who is going to give me that little chance that im pleading for right now at this moment? And im kind of disappointed with myself for always making the same old blunders almost everytime. After so many lessons, i should have also learn to trust myself more than anybody i guess, no matter how well, how decent, how responsible they portrait themselves as. Hopefully i wouldnt be doped again the next time round. Sometimes, i just feel that it really doesnt pay good to be kind and its definitely not wise to help or to give any comments to anyone especially so when the person is super egoistic and acts like a dictator. People should learn to be honest, be themselves, learn to put themselves into anothers shoe and be kind. I really hate people who are just so full of themselves, never want to try to spare a thought for the latter. What might be good to you, might not be beneficial to the other. What you are capable of, might not be what the others are talented in. Perhaps thats the sole reason why this idiom is formed, 'one's meat is another man poison'. That aside, i find myself my aggressive recently. This is totally depressing. Well, thank god its only targeted at certain people who doesnt really deserve my 100% respect. Otherwise, i dont think i would even recognise who i am :( Sigh. Im not allowing myself to be like this. I could felt that it sort of jeopardised my certain things in life (which is stg i dont really know how to phrase it and might not be willing to share it here). I believe after seeing certain things myelf, experiencing a few unwanted, uninvited incidents and regretting some of my actions done, oversensitivity, over estimation of my hardwork, and the list goes on, i think ive really been woken up by the huge smack on my face. Ive to get up and stand up for myself. Ive to be more independent. Ive to show some people that im not that useless mugger, and tell them that they are not the one who are qualified enough to judgeme for who i am because they are not even good enough for me. This brought me to a phrase which i always thought i like it alot, 'a good leader is not some one who can lead his people, but able to lead and to serve'! Think about it :D I think i should really take a good break from here, take things slow, not to be too helpful, kind, gullible and control my emotions. Speaking of emotions, idk. I just feel that im someone who can really not hide her emotions well. When im happy, i smile and laugh it off, show and express my love for what im doing or is done onto me. When im in pain or sad, i would cry, though many of a times i tried very hard to hold back my tears. When im upset over certain issues, i wont hesitate to voice it out to show people around me that im not feeling exactly contented with whats going on. And, when im irritated/pissed, i swear i would frighten many away. I wouldnt hesitate to tell the person off. But, when im angry, idk. unless its my family members, i wouldnt even dare to show them that im about to erupt. Ive been holding back all the anger and sorrows in me.. Till then, people who are reading this long post of mine, and you jolly well know that im talking about you, wake your idea up. I can be more dominating and demanding like you are. 'Talking big' speaking louder, standing tall, eating more, weighing heavier or carrying a demon like demeanour doesnt make you smarter or a winner. You got to learn to be impartial and earn people respect. And, you seriously need alot of patience, know where you stand and belong, get your status right, and be nice to everyone around you, stop bullying or overriding the not so strong ones. I only value what is deserved to be value from now. I dont think i want to try so hard to please everyone any more since no one is pleasing me or rather i should say no one is even trying to please me. And i promise you that pleasing someone is definitely taxing and many of the time, its not at all well appreciated or accepted. For those who do not know me that well, im going to emphasize this strongly here, pleasing, coaxing people isnt my forte and i wont like to do it at all! Lastly, i just want to implant this to many people mind, i am doing things that i like, passionate for, and is always giving my 100%, very devoted to what she has, doesnt take things for granted, believes in trust and communication, believes in being slow and steady in order to win any race, intolerant to people constant complaints, being abused, scolded at for no reason because im not living for you neither am i your hell slave, being challenged from no where, trampled over with the word men, seniority and experience and FUCKING HATE IT when people take her life to gamble with! Thats a very unfriendly one. Alright, whatever to this. Now that ive let whats unhappy in me, im feeling much better (: Well. Im going to take a nice hot bath and dive into my bed. Goodnight earth.

myself.

2009-08-26T02:33:00.002+08:00

I am really glad that training has finally resumed. I feel that im doing more things now and not just mopping at home, munching on snacks, and going out for buffets. Hahaa.

With the new mgmt in the team, i really hope to see more new faces in the team, more juniors improving and seniors progressing further :D We got to push ourselves further in order to attain for the better!
Denvers lead the way, all the way!

needs to breathe.

2009-08-20T01:24:00.008+08:00

So many things happened recently. Ive no idea which to list down first. (Long sighhhhhhhhh!)

Just the other day, my dad accidentally let bubbles out of the house and this aggressive dog of mine injured my neighbour's dog. The vet which they brought their dog to is somewhat mean i thought. The vet STRONGLY suggested my neighbour to sue my dog and i utd tt if they win the case, bubbles will be put to sleep! W.T.F right?! That was what i thgt when i heard that. Idky, but it just boils me up! Thankfully, my neighbour is nice :D
Seriously, the whole event just dragged me down the past few days. I was so worried D: I love my bubbles!

Have been busy designing tees and banner lately. Maybe im just not as talent in this area. Designers are awesome people (: Learnt to appreciate them/their work!

And because there is no official training for a month, ive put on quite a bit of weight. I see cellulites forming rd my thighs, again! Gross lorr -.- Cant wait to train!!

I was thinking of going back to gym class once my hand is better but im not sure if my former coach would accept me =/

I did a spike the other day! Gleeful like anything but. .

I think i really lost my digicam :/ Really cant find it!

Ive learnt quite alot of things lately. I like some things tt ive learnt but i dont quite like the other some things tt ive learnt. Okay, this sounds stupid but yaa. I just feel that we should be ourselves, be natural and do what we deem is right :) Why get things so complicated? It will just upset you silly :D

Imma try my best to come out with some nice music and stunts. I really want to learn and help out in a way or two.

Im making bows/ribbons :D They arent as nice as what ive expected, unfortunately. Im still trying. Give me some time! Im sure i will get it right/done!

Some pictures to share for tonight (:

i love her this picture tonnes<3>

simplicity.

2009-08-16T02:53:00.002+08:00

simplicity is the best.
u cant always be at the top.
because, life is like a wheel.
there are time when ure up there, and there are also time where ure right smack at the bottom :)

precious.

2009-08-16T02:39:00.005+08:00

I love the one day stay at Fullerton.
I felt like a princess somehow :D
I appreciate the special date from you to me <3

I really like the simple and peaceful time spent together.
It just take me off all the unhappiness in me <3

you say you want time to stop right there, and last.you say you will always be there.you say you love me.you say we are so close yet far apart.i just want to tell you, i like it the way things are and im truly sorry.you are the best, as always.i love you.

colourless rainbow.

2009-08-16T02:19:00.002+08:00

I dont know why but im feeling pretty upset.

I just like being myself.
Always try to be at best and thrive hard!
Peace.Harmony.Natural.Lively

Responsibilities.

2009-08-08T01:33:00.002+08:00

Wooo, i feel some what busy lately!
Ive never ever have that many meet ups for discussions and meetings till this year.
Its pretty taxing, i wont lie.
But, for the whole lot of change, i guess its worth it!

We are going to be far better than this, as of now! We got to get this to serious work cheerleaders!
I heart Denvers! I heart my new committee! I heart i heart i heart myself! All thrilled and excited for next years routine and such! Highly motivated! <3

Get a life.

2009-08-08T01:31:00.001+08:00

Imma stop dreaming and wasting my time.

2011 is still a little far away, ive got many more stuff to do :D
Wise up!

Hush hush.

2009-07-23T01:01:00.001+08:00

Hush Hush :D

I never needed you to be strong
I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs
I never needed pain, I never needed strain
My love for you is strong enough you should have known
I never needed you for judgment
I never needed you to question what I spend
I never ask for help
I take care of myself
I dont know why you think you got a hold on me

And its a little late for conversations
There isnt anything for you to say
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So look at me and listen to me because

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

I never needed your corrections
On everything from how I act to what I say
I never needed words I never needed hurts
I never needed you to be there everyday
Im sorry for the way I let go
From everything I wanted when you came along
But I am never beaten, broken not defeated
I know next to you is not where I belong

And its a little late for explanations
There isnt anything that you can do
And my eyes hurt, hands shiver
So you will listen when I say baby

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to do this any longer
I dont want you theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

No more words
No more lies
No more crying

No more pain
No more hurt
No more trying

I dont want to stay another minute
I dont want you to say a single word
Hush hush
Hush hush
There is no other way, I get the final say
Because
I dont want to, do this any longer
I dont want you, theres nothing left to say
Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby hush hush

Hush hush
Hush hush
Ive already spoken, our love is broken
Baby

Connie talbot.

2009-07-22T00:43:00.002+08:00

I will always love you (:

Love her singing, everything <3
Enjoy!

To harlis.

2009-07-21T00:00:00.003+08:00

Heyy harlis, this post is specially typed out for you!
Im not exactly sure if you will see this post since my blog is not known to anyone in denvers.
(Some saw it by chance though. Shucks!)

Well, i just want to tell you that you made a good captain this year.
I understand that it wasnt really an easy year for you. Denvers and i expected alot from you :)
My unhappiness with you on several occasions have made your life slightly more tough too.
I seriously hope you understood my concerns then :D
Im truthfully apologetic for those actions though.

Your position in office had made us all grew. These can be seen in terms of the cheerleading standard, though not yet brilliant enough for others but to me its wonderful, and the bond among everyone. I value them all!

Also, those effort you have put in cheer is undeniable, but, dont just stop there yaa? Continue working harder, wanting to learn more do more, take the hardship thrown to you and push yourself to the limit or rather beyond your limit !We still have got much much much much much more to learn in cheer! We can even make our own signature stunt like the americans! Shall we throw in the bit of effort in executing all our stunts?

Lastly, talking to you more recently has made me realised that . . . . . . . . (i shant say here, yaa?)

Nonetheless, cheer on and stay on in cheer for yourself, your passion to cheer, ignore the rest! This is because, they are obstructions, (nonsense) thus redundant! Be strong and i love u my 2008/9 captain! :D

just for u, love.

2009-07-19T03:57:00.005+08:00

Specially produced for Denvers (:

I appreciate those who have taught me alot of cheer related stuff for the past 3 years. It was pretty much a challenge for me to stay on in this team. I have learnt alot, seen alot and am satisfied enough to meet all the new friends in the team.

Just want to let all of you know that you are the ones that keep me motivated and moving all these while, and i love every single one of you.

No matter what has or have happened, i am always willing to let it go (after ive whined enough, i suppose) :D This is solely because i treasure everyone of you. You are like my brothers and sisters. I really miss those good old days whereby lilo, mel, xy and clar are still super super super active in the team! The load of fun and laughters are unforgettable! D:

Also, taking this opportunity here, i want to tell sharon a million of thanks and i love u girl! Thanks for walking alongside me all these while :) Similarly, to mengheng who is always willing to listen me whine and allowed me to lose my cool in front of him :D To harlis, finally calling me his partner, and willing to work with me on partner stuntings, resisting my fall, make peace with me after our occasional tiff with each other, love and protect me from mean people. Last but not least to all the rest like ben, vic, yan, yq, bb, tp, wl, xy, hakim, and all the other juniors who have been nice to me, flourishing me with all the love that u all could give me, im more than contented! Thanks! <3

Enjoy the clip =p

Till then, i pray hard that my decision isnt wrong and that denvers will still be my that pillar of strength.

the horrible truth.

2009-07-18T22:39:00.003+08:00

Yet again, im injured; one arm down. Seriously, i dont think anyone can have such miserable luck as i do. This horrible truth is indeed saddening. Each time when im injured, i really feel terrible and irritated. I doubt anyone out there can truly understand my frustrations and the pain im going through. This is definitely not the right kind of feeling im searching hard for. Im upset :/

And, am i really going to just blindly bite my lips and let everything pass this time round?

Excited about weight lost.

2009-07-18T01:39:00.002+08:00

Woots woots!! It got me all thrilled up when i read 44.7kg on my weighing machine! Im finally below the super cursed 45kg!! Yayness to the max! Imma continue wking out and i promise to eat less :D I want to hit my ideal weight-42kg by the end of this year! Imma pray hard that my weighing scale isnt faulty though! Hahhahahah!!! :D

Terrible.

2009-07-12T06:32:00.003+08:00

No more swearing! No more naughty girl acts! No more being petty! No more being unreasonable! No more being easily irritated! No more no more no more no more to all the negative behaviour! I need to find myself back. I need to seriously learn to filter off people who are really detestable at times! I dont like me being so defensive and easily agitated! Where is me, myself and i - pamela?

I must also learn that not everyone in this world is like zen. He is probably the only one who will treat me like a gem :/

im holding on.

2009-06-22T01:32:00.002+08:00

[Shaun] #07 says:
but wad i knw is sometimes u just have to take things lightly and with a pinch of salt ya knw wad i mean
maybe they did intentionally say somethings to hurt u but im sure its all in a fit of anger
u knw hw ppl say hurtful things when they are upset or angry
im sure things will be alright after a few days when things cool down

Sometimes things just go wrg. Sometimes u just have to lose some in order to win some. I hope what im doing is right. In order to keep things working and moving on, im holding on. Imma bite my lips and let it pass, im not going to erupt just yet. This is tough, nvr easy should i say D: Im kinda hurt by u and u again and again! Most of the upset post of mine here are all so related to u and u! Its time u wake up! Karma exist!

backhandspring.

2009-06-10T03:31:00.002+08:00

This is so omg! Rmb me whining and being sad for quite awhile when i tore my arm ligament? Uhhuh. Those were the devastating days. Im almost flying up to the sky when i could do my backhand spring today! I felt really cool! Its been a long time, 6 mths to be more precise, since i last did my bhs. Ive finally overcome that daunting fear in me! Im loving it! Also, congrats to harlis! We can finally do a nice single tick tock! Way to go! :D

Everything seems more on track now. Let it remain as it is.

Meeting u is really like a dream. U made me smile more! U made me happy! U made me believe in fate! U made me more confident! U made me feel good! U made me.. idk.. just like u! Ure like a gods gift!

this is not a dream, this is reality.

2009-06-05T22:30:00.004+08:00

Uve got no idea how much i miss my friends from the states. They are a bunch of awesome cheerleaders who are really entertaining. Ive learnt alot from them. They are a new bunch of new experience to me. Share with you guys one of our pictures.

Here it is,

Rhonda, katelyn, jahmaal, matt.

I totally miss the time whereby i have to get up really early to meet them and bring them ard. It was indeed tiring, but, i guess its worthwhile doing. The short period of time spent tgt has already made me feel so attached to them, god knows how it would be like if i were to bring them rd, train with them, eat their favourite r.o.t.i p.r.a.t.a for 1 week, 2 weeks? Im looking forward to next year skm. Hopefully they will be coming over again. Or, hopefully i will able to save up some money and be thr for an exchange or sight seeing. This would probably be great!

>>Rhonda, the hot mama of 3, continue to cheer and be loved.
>>Katelyn, all the best for ur engagement! Dont play play! I love dancing with u the other night. Everything is just so fantastic. Cheesy burger, mexician food! I love u.
>>Jahmaal, i love u big time. Thanks for the wonderful coaching. I love the single armed rewind, pop over, tick tock, knuckles basing etc etc. They were cool and very much valued by me. Brilliant experience! Coach hard, play hard, study and wk hard!
>>Matt, i love u too! Hate to see u leave too. Miss the good times, small chat! Thanks for teaching me rewind, arabesque, full up cupie etc etc. I appreciate it. Also, thanks for giving me your cheer tee. I like the smell (hahaha)! We will meet up pretty soon i guess. Yep :D Cheer and wk hard. No lazy lazy! :)

Im having a bad bad sore throat now. Feeling really upset. Imma hit the bed now, will update my blog again. Goodnights all.

2340 (sin), 1040 (states)

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2009-06-01T16:29:00.004+08:00

Im feeling super upset. I want to scream out loud!

Ignorance is bliss, but im not.

2009-06-01T14:27:00.007+08:00

Second to none :D

Have been reading many many notes and replies last night as well as early this morning. Many of which have touched me. One of the short reply tt made me feel alot goes like this, "Life is like a wheel, it will be turning always. It will come to a time when ure up there, and some times when ure at the bottom. U just have to wait or work ur way up there!". It should be something along this line. I can only remember it vaguely. But, im sure the vivid or hidden message conveyed in it really meant alot. Think about it. The results is nothing compared to the process and hard work we have put in. No regrets :D

Personally, i feel more hyped up and am synergised for SKM as compared to cheerobics. Battle seems more challenging and tough. Maybe its because we have a goal ourselves. Emotions went all time high once again. Tears shed, many collapsed, love for each other, our team grew by leap and bound! After staying in Denvers for almost 3 years, i can proudly say tt this is one of the best year. Though ive not achieve whatever i wanted, still, ive seen and learnt alot of things here be it good bad clean or dirty. Thanks Denvers. Sspecial thanks to Victor and Ben. The little 'mature' and 'sensible' talk, and encouragement and strength u guys have given me really made me hang in there and continue to work harder. Also to my fellow sisters who were thr for me.

Im lost for words. I have no idea how to continue this post. I just want to tell all my teammates, u all have done really great last night. The many many cheerful and hopeful faces during the 'performance' gave me the unlimited strength and made me forgot about everything that have been haunting me for like idk how long. I like the feeling of fighting this battle with u all. And, it really sadden me, dragged me to hell when i saw xinyi collapse again. Be strong girl! I know u and u know me. Also, upon seeing bb and harlis broke down it also made me feel more terrible. Fight on. Please do not say those silly things and continue to lead the team. Lastly, i love my family, no matter what.

Afraid.

2009-05-28T03:55:00.004+08:00

Skm com is in another 2 days time. Lets jiayou everyone. Dont lose hope just yet! We still have 48hrs to train! Ive faith in all of u andddd myself!

Ive been listening to hushhush for days. Loop it loop it, everyday everyday! Ive no idea why im hooked onto this song too. All i can say is this song brings me back to many many many different parts of my life, be it good or bad. It makes me want to say sorry to u u u, thank you to u u u, i will do my best to u u u, ive regret doing this these those and that to u u u and many many many many @#$%^& to u u u and u. Shucks! Im not an elmo! Its not easy to get pamela to stop whatever she is doing just to think through some stuff which have happened like god knows how many years ago alright. Treasure this short moment! Heh.

On a happier note, im super luper duper happy for nic! He has graduated! I love today short outing and hanging with daddy pris and nic <3

Im super chatty today. Idk y too :)
Goodnights!

A better tomorrow.

2009-05-27T02:26:00.005+08:00

Life isnt getting better lately. Too many things have been happening recently. Ive really spent time reflecting/thinking on/over it. It finally woke me up from my fairytale. Sometimes, it just upset me when i know that life isnt as easy and wonderful.

Seeing how hard my friend has been fighting to keep something she really loves really remind me of myself when i was really much much younger. Ive no idea how and why, but it makes me really miserable. Follow your heart, be bold and fight till the end.

Im really super tired from everything. I think i really need a break from everything. I want more time for myself. I want a cup of nice strawberry smoothie now. I want to spend some time having a nice HTHT with my bestie, close friends, taxi gang. I want to have a nice chill pill beach-ing session with jy and cheermates. I want to have all the time in the world to play, eat, laugh and talk with my friends.
I want to be loved. I want to be pampered at like before. I miss the time when ive a bf too! I miss and want a lot of things. I really do feel lonely sometimes ;/ I hate this feeling.

Its 0312.

I really want to sleep, but my eyes just wont shut.

Dont look back in anger.

2009-05-26T00:23:00.003+08:00

If i can ever erase some words from the dictionary, it would be 'always', 'promise' and 'sorry'!
Seriously, what is always? And, what is a promise? Lastly, how much does 'sorry' means? Think about it :(

You're driving me mad.

for my friends.

2009-05-25T01:47:00.002+08:00

Strength comes from within. Dont lose hope. Smile and be happy!

taxigang.

2009-05-25T01:24:00.002+08:00

I love my girls. It hurts me when anyone of them are upset. Be optismistic, be strong! We are no hermit! Face it and feel embrace! Im here, always :)

This is totally stupid but crazily hilarious. Enjoy!

ilikecelebrations.

2009-05-25T00:27:00.001+08:00

:D

2009-05-23T02:48:00.001+08:00

哎~~~~~~~
谁拉住我谁救救我我从高空狠狠地坠落
谁叫醒我说这是梦说你和她什么都还没有
在窒息的沉默中你握住我的手
爱怎么了我怎么了一句话都没有说
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
你没有错我没有错是一阵风吹熄了承诺
你挣扎过你要我懂那谁来懂我心里的黑洞
我从来没有这么渴望你欺骗我
抛开一切,千疮百孔,明天到底怎么过
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子
哦~~
我曾经以为爱情应该诚实 HO~
但诚实却是最尖锐的刀子
你坦白一切留给我决定是多么的自私
我恨你就连你的感谢都太诚实 HO~
你不懂最大的温柔是掩饰
在我转身之前你看不到我流泪的样子

你太诚实.

2009-05-23T01:43:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i really feel like a bit*h when i bit*h about my friends D:

I see myself changing bit by bit to that someone i really dont want to be.

Im trying very hard not to be like her.

I dont want to be so scary.

I want to be me, myself and i.

God, please guide me thru this ugly part of my life.

exasperating.

2009-05-20T00:45:00.003+08:00

The sight of u irk me. I hate u. Please dont talk to me.

I hate myself for not abling to execute that nice layout! I dont believe that ive totally lost it!
Im going to work on it! Doubly hard! :D

updating my updates.

2009-05-16T05:01:00.002+08:00

It feels really good to get my twist cradle back! Missed the feeling! It feels equally good when i can fly up high from my btoss! It feels totally awesome when i finally realised tt some people will always be there spotting me and nvr let me fall (: Im crazily elated!

Prawning is an interesting activity. Unfortunately, i do not have that much patience in me. That might be the key explanation to why i only manage to catch 1 prawn in 3 hours. Heh. This is pathetic, arent it?

I hate it when ive pimples populating on my face. It makes me look really terrible! Especially so when my pimple outbreak double up =/ Shine-be-gone!!

Its 0621, i can finally feel my eye lids getting heavy :D Imma hit the bed now! Goodnights earth!

so woosh.

2009-05-13T04:08:00.003+08:00

Something seem amiss. Ive been staring into the blank for the last few hours not knowing what to do. Blog hopped and hopped by denvers' blog. Im impressed by the number of posts (171 to be exact)! Out of which, i think ive only read less than 10 of them though ive been in denvers since 2006? Perhaps this is also one of the reason why i only started to mingle with everyone/the seniors only in 2008! This is soooo pathetic! Though i didnt really read thru all the posts, several posts mentioned my name :D Im pretty glad tt my welfare and hardwork are being cared for and recognised by some of my teammates. It really touches me. It meant alot to me too! Thanks :D

Happy belated 21st dear.

2009-05-13T02:14:00.002+08:00

Happy belated 21st hweepeng!
Hope uve a good one.
Im really sorry for not being able to there :D
Hope u understand!

我爱你!!!! 爱你爱你爱死你!!!!

Life is like a sweetener (:

2009-05-13T02:03:00.002+08:00

Hey kids! Ms Goh is back to blog! Im not too sure what to say or ask u here, but there is something i want all of u to know, that is if u need someone to talk to, u can always come to me! Also, work doubly hard for your mid years! Dont give up! Lastly, Miss Goh misses and loves 5/6!

Message to my kids aside.
Tadaa! LG-Lifes good/great! Ive been more active in cheer recently. I love it. I dont want it to end so soon! I love alot of things rd me now. Im super motivated to wk harder for cheer! Theres so much tt i wan to learn but yaa. Nvm :D Shall take things slow. Anyway, i like my slightly hectic lifestyle. It makes me feel tt im more hardworking and quoted from vic and ben, "uve grown up!"! HAHAHAH! Im already a grown up (: Whatever it is. Shall end here. Nights earth.

Love is in the air,

2009-05-08T00:06:00.002+08:00

Ive a super dramatic week this week! But, i sort of like the feeeling! It makes me feel super good! Its so surreal. Anyway, skm com is drawing nearer, im super excited yet afraid. Taiwan trip is drawing nearer as well! Im even more fascinated over it! (: I cant help not to imagine myself riding the motorbike up the mountain top, enjoy the hotspring, shop like never before! Its so tskk. Hahaha! Alright, i will update more about myself another time! Yadaa yadaa :D

3 weeks.

2009-04-29T03:30:00.007+08:00

Its been 3 weeks since ive worked.
Ive appear to have all the time in the world, but actually im not.
Ive no time for gymnastic lessons! Thats so screwed.
Ive no time to meet up with my friends. Im dying to meet up my old friends.
Theres so so so so many ppl that i want to hang out with

-my taxi gang

-my best friend (:
(hope ur eye is fine dear)

-my sec mates
totally looking fwd to hweepengs 21st bday party ^^

-my cheermates
-my jc classmates
-my jc schoolmates
-my ex colleagues
-etc etc etc

Maybe i should really wk on my time management and sleep like a normal person.
Alright, shall keep the post short.
Gastritis sucks!

Experiences.

2009-04-22T05:39:00.002+08:00

Ive seen u through.
Ive finally know u.
Im disappointed.

Its just so OMFreakingGGGGG.

2009-04-16T03:39:00.002+08:00

OMG!! Can someone pls convince me tt what ive seen for myself isnt true! Why did it turn out to be this wayyyyy. Its freaking me out totally. I thgt he could be someone i can communicate with amicably, in the near future. Just whats wrong with u?! Ive no idea how things are like now, but. If i can brain wash u, i might do so immediately. Pls wake ur idea up! You cant be what ure now, seriously. Disappointing!

Putting that aside, im pondering over a rather serious matter now, right now. Im thinking over it really thoroughly; analysing the causes and effects too. I dont want to hurt anyone, and i want my decision to be respected. Sighhh.

Anyway, ive decided not to stay home tmr. I want to get up slightly earlier. Ive been sleeping till late noon almost everyday, now. Its so not right. Since ive self declared holiday, i should be out on the street; doing my shopping, visit the mani/pedicurists, wash and blow my hair instead of moping on my bed or staring at my lappy. Tskk. I need to start dieting again :/ Eating has become my hobby one again. Tskk, again. Zzz.

Just cant shut my eyes.

2009-04-15T05:44:00.002+08:00

Seriously, what could have been the result of this? For the n-th time ive been whinning tt i cant sleep in the night or rather early. This is so unbecoming of me. I should be stress free, aint i?
Im no longer haunted by the plethora of wk or under the scrutiny of others, at least for now.
Furthermore, i think im still suffering from an over accumulation of fatigue. Though i am already on holiday for a week (:

Anyway, ive been down with a really bad flu. The feeling just makes me terrible. Doctors have said that flu bug can be pretty serious. This lingering cold may cause headache, earache, sinus congestion, sore throat and cough, etc. This may be also the reason why im on antibiotics.

On another note, ive found myself another gym coach, coach he! Yayness totally. He is a pretty recognised and superb gym coach. Its definitely not some hearsay. I attended his try outs the other time, i almost collapse! Its really no play play (: He is going to 'build me' up from scratch, which means im going to learn everything from scratch. Pamela's back to basics. Erm, im always stuck at the basics anyway. And, hopefully this time rd i can really get out of this back to basic cycle. Its so undesirable can. In fact, each time when im back to foundation building classes, i would never fail to roll my eyes. Whatever it is, i hope this will be the last time im going to roll my eyes during gym lesson.

Also, on another super random note, i miss my students. Each time my student send me a sms, my heart would some how ache a little. Maybe i should have put up with (not to mention it anymore). Well. No more comments.
**To hakyee: Concentrate on your studies. Be a good leader and listen to your form teacher!
Help me to send my regards to the rest. Im glad to hear all the little little news/updates from u too. Make sure those naughty ones do behave themselves. Smile more! (:

Its o638. Im still wide awake. Tskkkkkkkk!

This is just so true, omg.

2009-04-15T05:19:00.004+08:00

Name: Pamela Goh
Date: 4/14/2009
Colorgenics Number: 37145026

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

You are willing to try anything once. You 'need to be needed' and what is perhaps more important you 'need to need.' You can only feel close to a person or persons when you feel you can trust them, but this trust needs to be proven to you.

Loneliness is soul destroying and at this time you feel lost and lonely, perhaps it is because you feel so frustrated that you are prepared to go out of your way to become emotionally involved with someone who could accept you for what you are. You are egocentric, antagonistic and quick to take offence, although it must be said, you can control your pent-up up emotion and thus avoid open conflict.

You are trying to prove yourself - not only to yourself but also to everyone around you. There is much that you would like to say and do but the situation warrants self-restraint and that is the last thing that you have on your mind. It would seem that you have an unsatisfied need to ally yourself with others whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to stand out from the crowd. This is subjecting you to considerable stress but you tend to stick to your attitudes despite lack of appreciation. Of course, you are finding the situation uncomfortable and would like nothing better but to break away from it but you don't like the idea of compromise. Your main problem is that you are unable to resolve the situation because you continually postpone making the necessary decisions. You feel that if you make the wrong choice this would lead to such opposition that you would not be able to command the esteem of others. It is essential that those around you are prepared to comply with your wishes.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

http://www.goldinuniverse.com/

Try it. Its pretty much accurate.

Perhaps to a certain extent only. It makes me sound completely egoistic. (hahahah)

Restless.

2009-04-07T13:22:00.003+08:00

After staying home, staring into the blank for only half the day, im kind of gg mad.
If i am still tching, this would be my last period for the day!
Blah.
I miss tching actually.
Hmm, alot.
Perhaps, im just too used to the past 3 mths routine.
Waking up early, getting headache when travelling to sch, do heads count for the class, sing the national anthem, recite the pledge, tch my kids, attend pe lessons, chiong my marking etc etc.
Those were the hectic days.
No doubt, they keep me really occupied, but also give me a sense of fulfillment.
Now, i utd y thr are so many ironies in life ;/

Goodbye my darlings.

2009-04-06T21:40:00.007+08:00

My favourite class.

A nice class picture taken by me (:
They are my jems!

Let the pictures below do some talking...

my c.h.a.m.p.i.o.n.s

my pillar of strength.

the well decorated wall.

art wk of my kids.

the little little monkeys and i (biggest and oldest monkey).

At this point of time, there is this mixed feeling in me.
Im not sure of how to express it.
All that i know is that im feeling really perturbed by this mixed feeling tt is in me.
After teaching, scolding and guiding my kids for a term or so, my love for them have really grown tremendously. Thus, making departure more miserable.
Ive started to miss every single one of them, my classroom and wk station.
The journey has been an arduous one.
Ive learnt alot.
Those lessons have made me grown up too.

To my dearest 5/6, thanks for the fun time, laughters, jokes, talent time shows and the whats not uve shared with me, i really love them. They are all being appreciated by me.
Thanks for the cards, diary, drawings, flowers, photo frames, mug, bear, etc etc etc too.
Remember to wk hard, and do well!
All the best!
Miss Goh loves 5/6 '09 ("v")

Time to spare.

2009-04-04T01:25:00.003+08:00

Its been quite some time after cheerobics 09.
It still felt so much like ytd.
Im gg to have more free time soon, i suppose?!

Im gg to train train train and train!
I wan my abs.
I wan to slim down.
Target: 42kg! (39 will be even better) Seems a little or rather too far fetch.
Well, hahahh! Impossible is ntg, so long theres a will to it (:

Yep, have to be more more more flexible! Getting stiff.
Got to stop being complacent! ;/
Some of my scorpion pictures.
Still chui but at least better than the one i did last yr!
Will continue to stretch more!

Anyway, i really miss stunting. Havent been stunting like before.
Supermannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn, tell me if ure free alright (:
Yada yadaa. Tmrs trg will be fun i guess. There will be a mini exchange eh, woots!
Simply loves exchanges!
Hope it will be fun!

Ive no idea what im doing here tonight.
Im bored.
Goodnights (:

Needs a breather.

2009-04-01T00:20:00.011+08:00

Fatigue has gotten over me since ive no idea when.
Its gg to end pretty soon, i know.
Im gg to relax, chill pill to the max before school starts.
Im dying to go over to taiwan! (:/ couldnt bring my partner along)
Im gg back to gym lessons! Super deprived of it!
Its time for me to pamper myself!
Its time for me to train hard, play hard and lose weight! YAY :D

Anyway, the annual post cheerobic outing to the beach was simply awesome!
Im like a roasted chicken now ;/

I really love the every moment spent with u guys tt day!
Familyyyy (:

Im gg off to bed! Goodnights!

National cheerleading championship.

2009-03-23T01:04:00.006+08:00

Cheerobics or rather the national cheer championship has finally come to an end.
No words could describe how i/we felt after performing.
I was simply touched by every single one.
I believe this is just the beginning for everyone of us.
Im looking fwd to better team spirit, team work, respect, love, trust and bonding.
We are our own enemy/competitor!
We got to break this through!
We got to wk on it.
Although the results didnt show it, but, we know very clearly tt we have won deep inside ourselves.
We have already put in our very best! Right?
ASU: All Stunts Up! <3

Lets all rest well for the next 1 or 2 weeks.
After which, lets all chiong hard for SKM com and next yr's national championship (:
Lets all aim higher and spot well!!
Boost the flyer confidence, bases strength x100! heh.

Denvers lead the way, all the way!!

Stock market went all time up high, again.

2009-03-19T23:55:00.010+08:00

Yet, another episode of 'tragedy' =/

Pamela needs some/wants some miracle to happen today, tonight.

We not only have the best 16 this yr, we have the best team spirit this yr.
Best routine, best cheer, best song, best in almost everything.

When u say tt we have the best 16 men but the worst team spirit u ever have had, u totally hurt my feelings.
Heartache is stg i hate!
Misunderstanding is stg tt im intolerant to!

This is not the 09 team i like, i want.
I expected more than this.
I see more than tt.
I have got trust, faith, love and all for each of everyone of u!

Heartache

To the final 16,
1. Harlis:
-my dearest 09 cap, u noe no matter what uve done/ive done, at the end of the day, i still love u (: uve done a great job this yr. this is the kind of trg im looking fwd to this yr. rmb, we are a family. u can only see the best best-est ever team spirit this sunday! cus, we are saving up ur energy (:
pls pls pls in future, dont cry and swear this way =/ ure breaking me down at the same time :s

2. Bb:
-my dearest 09 vcap, 08 cap, 05 coach, ive no idea what happened to u at home and tt have made u tt upset but i just want to tell u tt, if ever uve no one to turn to, pls rmb me cus i will be here for my 881 sister no matter wat. im looking fwd to the tw trip with the fellow taxi gang. i know it will be fun. i miss those time where we were so close tgt =s

3. Yq:
-hello yq my 05 coach, 07 cap jiayou on ur tumblings, tcare of ur ankle (:
its so nice to have u bck in our team this yr (for nationals). it does give me a little more confidence in some way! jiayous! (dont ask anyone of us to suck thumb anymore, so not nice!)

4. Sharon:
-sharon! i just need to tell u tt im happy to have a friend like u. u make me feel so good whenever i see u. u allow me to talk to u comfortably, openly, and confidently. i really need those. thanks for being thr for me when i needed some one badly. like wat i just told bb, im totally looking fwd to tw trip 3! lets have 3 ma chou chou guo and shopping plus trg like last yr (:
pamela loves u.

5. Xinyi:
-xy! hang on thr alright! while ure still chionging for ur studies/quizes/presentations/projects/cheer trg etc etc etc, pls rmb to tcare of ur own health. dont wish to see u breaking down and feeling sad. jiayous alright! dont allow ur frustration to get the better of u eh (:
really hope tt u can go to tw with us!
hugs for u!

6. Lilo:
-my dearest lilo, i hope ure not aching everywhr now. this yr has been a little too taxing on u, from jumps to tumblings to basing/stunting. i want to tell u that, ure really good/strong/tolerant! it has really been hard for u. do stay happy and be less stress up. i can make u laugh anytime!

7. Hakim:
-hakimi, great job on ur robt. although u kind of like to disturb/irritate me recently, i dont really mind. cus i noe u dont mean it. right (:
i like the papaya sister video 2! its really hilarious. tt video nvr fails to cheer me up! do well! denvers youngest base.

8. Zhaoxuan:
-xuanxuan, its really nice to noe u. from sr to denvers. uve been a great friend. a better friend since i forgot when. tts not really impt. anyway, have confidence in ur robt! ure improving like anything! i also need to tell u stg. im glad to have a base like u. some times u just make me feel really da*n safe when i do any stunts with u! keep up the good wk eh. i like!
tyyy (:
(ps. congrats on ur single lib with sharon! its awesome! cupie some day!)

9. Juyuan:
-dearest xiong di, btuck motivator totally. becus of u, all the guys start to learn btuck!
blessed to have u, really. wk hard on stunting! i believe some day u can be on par with harlis or yq! and, im waiting for u to toss me like prata!
oow, lets wii after nationals alright! (:
lend me ur nikon some day. i promise to be a better photographer =)

10. Melvin:
-melvin!! my superhero!! thanks for the ruyi oil totally. w/o it tt day, i might just collapse!
thanks for being my friend! dont be with ah lian anymore (: also, dont be an ah beng anymore. stop swearing. becus f ur presence, i started to curse and swear more recently. ure making me rebellious =/ not good! some day i would really wan to see u doing tumblings with the rest, tossing me up like anything! u handstand and cart wheel are getting better day by day! great job done! jiayou for skm alright! ive faith in u!
i also wish to see u joining us for the coming tw trip! more the merrier!

11. Stanley:
-hello dali (: although i barely know u, still ive some short message for u.
thanks for being my base! i feel blessed! i feel safe too. so far uve nvr nvr nvr ever allow me to touch the grd! thanks alot! i like it too!
thanks for listening to my whines on some occasion. thanks for the encouragements and all. i really do appreciate them alot! it means alot to me too! jiayou for skm and nationals!
continue to cheer hard after these com alright ^^
im waiting for u to toss me up high high high high highhhhh.

12. Wenjie:
-ello coby. if u wanna cry, cry on my shoulder. if you need someone, who cares for you,
if you're feeling sad, your heart gets colder. yes, i show you what real love can do. im singing this sentence to u now. be confident (: ure doing great all this while! ur passion for cheer, ur hardwk really pay it off! jiayou jiayouss!

13. Brandan:
-brandan, ty for all the encouragement uve given me. i really appreciate them.
its nice to see u becoming more amicable now (: i like it!
overcome the fear of doing a robt! i know u can do it! wk on it (: show me, show denvers!
jiayous!

14. Candice:
-dearest xmm, 'tu tuu tuuu tuuuu tuuuuu'!
all the best for skm and nationals! nice dismounts uve! jiayou!
cheer face times ten pls! smile and cheer like nvr before. show it to me!
i noe u can! im gg to see u do layout v soon!
if i (soo timid) can do it, u can for sure!

15. Victor:
-hello victor (: im sorry for being slightly more harsh today. i was super unhappy and pissed in some ways. i hope u dont take it to ur heart. allow me to make it up to u someday (like treating u to a meal (: no sushi!) u noe i mean no harm. ive n idea why im so easily irritated and agitated recently. maybe all teachers are like tt? cus we get whatever we wan from our students? we dont allow them to piss us off in any ways. (okayy this make me sounds really mean. i dont bully them anyway. i love them all.) i also really really hope tt u can join me/us in for the coming tw trip! ure sharon and i dustbin, oops! heh. we merely help u to save up on food expenses.
back to topic, thanks for huan chionging me ever since u/we came back from the tw trip. i like the toss ext! lets do it again soon, like after nationals, alright?
meanwhile, cheerface thick thick!
my favourite toss-er still (:

16. Zahara:
-heyy yo dj. im sorry for being super late today!
its nice to have u s my base! u really make me feel safe! i like it. for u to tahan my weight plus sharon weight, its really hard on u too! if ure in need of massage, just ask me for it, anything alright (: most willing to!
anyway, ure a great friend totally! some day i will wan to try out all the new burgers not rice burgers from mos with u! (: i miss tt outing or rather tt day out shopping for cloth with u!
u nvr fail to make me laugh real hard! i love u zahara!

Denverites, this is really gg to be the v v v v v v last lap. I hope we could really all hang in thr for awhile more! Strive hard this sunday! Create or leave great memories behind 09 cheerobics!
(Pamela) leads denvers all the way, all the way!!

I love denvers!

Happy moments.

2009-03-19T02:43:00.023+08:00

Yadayadaaa (:

1. Im happy to noe tt ive u all (u noe who) by my side!
I feel really comforted.
I like this feeling :)
I hope this feeling would stay on as it is!

2. Im starting to love my btoss even more.
I want to learn more, do more, progress further!

3. Also, gong xi gong xi zx and sha lun (:
Nice single lib!
Jiayous jiayous!

4. Next, i love ben and johoe wedding dinner (:
Was awesome.
We took like god knows how many pictures eh.
(ive no time to upload them, but u can view them from my fb a/c!)
Spore's 1st cheerleading married couple! Woots, 2 thumbs up!

5. Im gg to tw again, soon! Wheeeehoo!

6. Ive the denvers new tee (:
(advertisements)

7. I lost 4kg in 3 mths (:
Gleeful.
But i still have some fats crowding at my super big thighs and waist =//
Wants to be cellulites free too!

8. Its term break (:
Life has been slightly better.
Ive a little bit more time to sleep, yayness! Super deprived!
But still, im all packed with other activities, marking and etc =s

9. I feel super prepared for SKM-prelims!
Its on this friday! Tts like tmr? Woooo! 0.0
(scaryyy)

10. I feel quite prepared for Nationals-cheerobics!
Hmm, maybe have to buck up for Pstunts. Havent even try yet lorr o.o (super super scarryyyy)
U have to catch hold of me!
Nvr let me fall like today!
Super duper uber scaryyyyyyy.
(sniffing, feeling the trophies already) Cheyyyy! Hahahah!

11. Im gg to bed now.
Got to get up early to do the backup flags and ribbons plus the nvr ending marking of ws, etc =/
Goodnightssss (:

Please.

2009-03-19T01:54:00.004+08:00

I hope im being too sensitive this time rd.
I want everything to be like the past.
I hate this feeling.
I dont want to be again pushed behind tt boundary.
Give me the chance to express myself.
Please dont think tt im trying to vie over anything/some things with u.
I wont.
I only take what i deserve, and nothing extra.
I believe in meritocracy.
I believe in the phrase, u reap what u sow.
I believe my/ur total input to anything/certain thing will be = to the total output!
I really have no idea what i did wrg can =/ (why must it be always like tt, ._.)
I dont want this to spoil the r/s bwt us!

I really dont like things to turn out this way. It isnt suppose to be anyway (:
I still value u, s much s bfore =//

Denvers' jokes.

2009-03-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

2009-03-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

SCORPION!

Still trying to get my flexibility back!
Will wk hard!
(ignore my facials here! totally hopeless :/ )

Sad.

2009-03-09T22:15:00.007+08:00

Im feeling damn down now.
Ive no idea whats gg to be my next move.
I feel myself caught in between too many things.
Will someone pull me out of this mess?

Sometimes, i think ive given in too much.
So much so that, i started to feel that im being @#$%^&* by others.
My hard wk, my commitment, my everything seem so not recognised, so not appreciated for.

Why did it turn out like this?

Some random feeling.

2009-03-06T15:05:00.003+08:00

Hopefully i wont regret the choice which ive made.

May luck and all be showered upon me.

o8 results are being released.
I dont noe if its unfortunate, lucky or coincidental, ive got the same result as the previous year.
=/
Well, im not exactly surprise since i really didnt wrk tt hard for As (for some subjects only).
But, ive regretted not working tt hard, again sadly.
Tskk, must be cause of the word-procrastination!
Or should i say its cause of the word-laziness?!
. . im seriously quite upset somewhere deep inside :/

One idiom for miss goh,
do not cry after a spilled milk.
Or,
you reap what u sow?
Or rather,
its time to pull ur socks up?

Grr.
Go and die.

Pictures pictures pictures.
Picture paints a 'million' words.

life of a pte candidate.

While i was going through some pictures under my SRJC folder, i came across these pictures.
Memories immediately flushes twds me (:

These keychain are from fides and jacq (:

Smiley coconut.
Designed by jon and i during one of our lunch session at crystal jade.

Aww. I really almost forgot bout this sotong!
Always by my side when i need some one to talk to etc (:

This is another sweet sweet note/words of encouragement from my friend (:
Totally love it. Appreciated.
Ive to tell u tt u kept me moving on, always!

Some times, some how, i feel tt im very fortunate to have certain things rd me.
But, . . im too lazy to type it out.
If u noe me, u will noe what i want to say laa laa laa laaaa.
Grr.

Alright.
Friends, pamela misses u all (:

Breather.

2009-03-01T22:33:00.007+08:00

Taking a short break from marking.
Just a few minutes ago, i was looking thru some picture in my hp and i came across these pics,

they were taken on a very wet wednesday evening.
I could clearly remembered how restless i was tt day.

Once the bell rang to signal for the end of the day, i was pretty elated.
But, when i stepped into the staffroom, on upon looking at my wk station, i almost faint.
My desk was practically fully occupied with exercise books, files, ws, test papers, etc.
Ive barely enough place to put down my pencil box.
Very pathetic, it seems.

It was.

Marking for tt day was horrendous.

Back to main the main topic.
I saw this beautiful rainbow when i was waiting for the train to come.
It just brought out the joy and fascination in me.
Its not always we can get to see such great natural phenomenon afterall.
It will only appear when it has the correct or rather the right mix of elements needed.

The sight of the rainbow simply touches my heart.
It gave me an assurance that things that are not going in its way, will soon be solved/gradually work out well.
It reminded me to remind everyone out thr who are as stressed up as i am that, everyday is just another new day, stay hopeful and be positive (:

Alrights, im back to marking.
Bbyes!

A late update.

2009-03-01T01:10:00.003+08:00

1Excellence gathering was fantastic.
I miss u all.
A short phrase to sum it all up, 'sweet reminiscence'!

Miserable.

2009-03-01T01:08:00.003+08:00

Once again, u lied.
Im hurt.
I cant feel u now.
Last time, last chance.

Goodness, my.

2009-02-26T22:59:00.007+08:00

Om*g!
I totally resent that statement/comment the tcher(s) made!
Am i such an easy target?
Y?! (i seriously think tt u owe me an explanation and pls prove it to me with some evidence)
Tt sort of criticism is utterly sinful, especially so when she(they) blabbered it to my kids!
Pls reflect on tt pt a little.
Its really bad to noe tt im actually being arrowed at IN SCHOOL :/
I thgt its a place whr values, morales are being cultivated?

Im feeling rather hopeless now :/
Im starting to dread/detest school day by day (as much as i hate to admit it, but. .)

U made me speechless!

However, i must say tt thr are still a few friendlier, nicer tchers ard.
Guiding me, helping me when im lost.
It does helps to move me on. Appreciated, ty (:

Vday.

2009-02-15T03:51:00.003+08:00

One of the best-est day (:

Thanks for the flowers,
thanks for the bears,
thanks for digicam (tskk, i really like it laa),
thanks for the clothes (heh, i like it),
thanks for the towel (from hk, ooow),
thanks for the cards,
thanks for the candies,
thanks for the chocolates,
thanks for the wallet (shouldnt have),
thanks for the make up kit (are u trying to hint to me tt im ugly? i dont wear make up btw. time to noe me better),
thanks for the socks (this is an uber funny gift),
thanks for the treats,
thanks thanks thanks!
and, lastly, no thanks to the lingerie! (lol. i cant wear them out or at home right? wat a weird gift)

Also to the mr anonymous, thanks for the gifts! Appreciated.
Ive been receiving many stuff from u for like 3-4 years already, but ive no idea who u are =s
thanks alot!
happy vday to u (:

But, was also one of my suckiest day.
The moment im home, ive been marking ws like no body business.
Filling up my stomach with coffee.
All well bloated and energised.
Grr, this is damn bad!
Ive still have to get up early tmr for an early breakfast with alan =s dreading it already. ooops!
And, thrs trg again tmr.
Am excited bout it, but im super tired!
I need a good sleep! Good sleep! Good sleep!
Good sleep meaning sleeping on my bed with bubbles, under my quilt, hugging my pillow, listening to my favorite songs for at least, at least, at least 12 hours.
Kind of impossible =/

Alright, im gg for my power nap.
Nights all.
Happy valentine day!
(Those who didnt get to spend time with the person u love most, its okayy (: thrs always another vday. Moreover, vday can be on any day, every day, so as long ure happy bout it. So, cheer up to U U U and U!)

Determined.

2009-02-14T03:29:00.004+08:00

Tell me what exactly u want, pamela!
All of a sudden, i felt quite miserable.
I guess its because im no longer living in the way i desire most.
Stress, accumulated fatigue, succumb to certain ppl threats or orders if u say so, they are just robbing me off somehow, somewhr.
Im definitely worn out.
Not much energy is left.

Im very determine on seeking back my carefree lifestyle.
Im more or less sure on what i want in life, want to be and what i see myself as in 3 yrs time?
It wont come to me, i know.
I will strive for it.
After all, everyone has to fight for their own happiness. It cant be bought, can it?
If there is ever such great offer, please let me know (:

Anyway, on a happier note, im celebrating vday with myself. Heh.
Im just kidding.
I cant be at such pathetic state right.
Even though if im single, i wont always keep myself on the shelf.
Im gg out with some friends.
Surprises are what im looking for. Enjoyment is something im seeking for.
Memories are what im awaiting for.

Alright. Leaving that aside.
Ive not been very happy during trg these few days.
Do not prompt me.
Ive no idea why such feelings would have arises.
Its just there. Who can define feelings?
Ive injured my ankle and arm once again.
I really dont like it when they are injured.
It hinders my progression in cheer.
Therefore, it angers me!
Grr.

I shall stop whinning here.
Recently, many have complained tt ive became more whiny and grouchy.
Thats very undesirable.
Thats not me.
Goodnights!

Mr ang.

2009-02-08T21:30:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Mr Ang!

Hope u like the simple celebration (:
Rmb, i like guys with great fashion sense! Heh.

These are the that many pictures we have taken tgt.
Its v little eh!
He is one of the best ive ever met in my whole entire life!

Totally miss blogging.

2009-02-08T19:05:00.031+08:00

Hello all!

Its really beeeeeen some time since im here!
I really miss blogging, anyhow.

Im just feeling super slack today.
Cant be bothered with anything.
Not even marking my books, at least.
Ive been lazing ard and sleeping on my table! (albeit unknowingly)

Its so not right right? But i kinda like it.
Especially so, when im doing it guiltily.
Im loving it!

It has been a mth odd since school has started.
Life of mine has been ever hectic!
Since day 1 to be very exact!
Rushing out many things! Reading up alot!
Marking alot! Calling up parents alot!
Sooner or later, i will be living an aunty lifestyle!
Something tt im really not looking fwd to! =/

No matter how ever bz i am, im still attending cheer trg like usual (:
Celebrating cny happily with my cheermates and family members, etc!
Didnt have the time to blog about it then.
Taking this opportunity here, i will briefly summarise it all with some pictures and headers/comments (:
So class, stop asking me if ive changed my blog add or asking me why my blog is sooooo dead eh!
The reason is simple. U should know y by now (:

Denvers had a mini reunion ytd at ppcc (:
Many of the seniors came back!
I learnt tt denvers was a champion team before! (woots!)
In 2005, we were the first runner up for nationals!
And, in 2007, we were the first runner up for SKM!
This year, i believe we will be somewhr rd thr too eh? (jiayous to the max!)

''Lets go!''
"Just do it!"
Trgs have been more intensive! Attendance has improved like no body business.
My arm and ankle are still as 'chui' as before.
This explains the 'no mention of gymnast classes'!
Haven been to gym lessons for coming up to 4 mths. Sadden me eh ._.
Putting tt aside, cheer has been pretty fun.
We have a few new team mates. Very lovable indeed.
Ive learnt to do layout in my own way. Heh. Still not well polished. But still, better than ntg laa huh (:
Once ive finally mastered my LO, i want to learn twist layout, pike open and kick twist!
Rewind is fun. But now, i wan to learn sunny side up! Woots!
Superman!! Sunny side up!

Taiwan and friends in tw are badly missed by me!

Welcome to tw!
I will be back, pretty soon (:

We all miss the night ride like terribly!
Denvers' girls night out!
Monsters' boys night out!
Others do stay out!
Joking!

(Taxi gang)

The trip to tw was awesome!

Snow ice has become one of my favourite delicacies!
Horribly superb!

Went over to my bestie hse for a simple yet pleasant dinner.

(my hairstyle simply s**ks!)

Charlie and baby!

Bubbles is back.
I miss baby and charlie!

Celebrated ah ma's birthday!
Was a simple affair. But. . .
Look at wide smile on her face.
Who can deny tt she isnt happy?

CNY 2009!
Cny this yr is a little different as compared to the past.
I love u grandpi (:

Reunion dinner was good. Gathering was great. Bonding was fabulous.

Love is in the air.
After uploading all the pictures and looking thru them, i saw the bit of narcissism in me.
Tskk.
Vainity is in the women genes, i suppose. Heh.

The assemblers!

Amazingly, i know how to assemble a table eh (:
Bought pris this study table from ikea.
I thought i bought it at a steal till i learnt tt we have to assemble it ourselves, and bring it back home ourselves =/
Otherwise, thr will be an additional charge for delivery and assembling of the table!
So wth right?
How can!
Exploitation!
But, i did it all anyway.
Felt so woohoo!

Alright, tts bout it!
Will try to blog more often.
If ive 50hrs a day, tt is (:
Goodnight all!

Revived.

2009-01-18T04:32:00.008+08:00

Hello!
Pamela's back!

I feel a little new here! (hahaha)
Havent blog for quite some time.
Tts because im really busy at work!
I have nvr ending admin stuff to handle, many more books to read up on and have to prepare games, buys 'treats' for my kids and etc.

BUT, ive to say tt its a very fulfilling job!
I quite like it!
And, i actually miss school when im on my 2 days medical leave!

Cheer has been pretty great lately!
I can feel the whatever atmosphere u call tt.
In simple words, i think we are on the go for Nationals 2009!
I wont be surprise if we were to be in the top 3 this yr, or even be the champs! Heh!
(A little 'hao lian'!)
Lets go Denvers! Lets wk even harder tgt!
We can!
WE can!!
WE Can!!!
WE CAn!!!!
WE CAN!!!!!!

Anyway, some little updatesssssssssssss:

Brought charlie and baby home already =s
I miss them alot, seriously!
Miss those times when they bark tgt, snatch my food, bark at me, sleep with me on my bed, and so on (:

Bubbles back!
Love her totally!
Shes still as cute!
Still as aggressive too!
(So not friendly like charlie and baby!)

This is how i look like now ;/
Not so nice looking.
My hair is getting slightly longer thou.
(hahahahhahaha)

Baby and i.
Shes gg to be sold to my aunty's aunty or friend soon =s
Shes uber cute and hyper!

Baby is just like a small version of bubbles!
She likes to sleep with me, just like bubbles!
Adorable.

Went to my aunty's place.
Saw chuckles!
Hes still the same! So fat!
Ooops! (hahhaha)
Yepp, he has really beefed up alot! More tone too!
More aggressive too!
Look at the scratch he gave me! =/
Hyperactive, it is.

Charlie is on the extreme left.
Baby is on the extreme right.
Pretty. My beauties!

Baby is still v young. Just take a good loook at her size! (:
Love them!

Twist cradle (full down)

I totally lost my twist cradle!
Let alone doing a double twist cradle!
Btoss has deproved too!
Sigh, but i will work harder on it! Till, i get them all right.
Nationals partner stunts are a little more challenging, but ppl/denverites, lets continue trying till we get it!
I hope all of us can hit the stunt up nicely!

So, i dont have to change the stunt again laaa.
(hahahhahah)
(not tt im lazy, but. cause, i like the stunt! and i think its highly achievable!)
Lets give everyone a chance, let Harlis and BB be able to guide us, lets be nice to one another!
PEACE.UNITY.LOVE.(CHEMISTRY)

Hopefully after nationals, i will be able to train hard for my PS too! (:

Also, i miss taiwan!
Was looking thru my pics the other day. . came across all the pics taken last yr during both
my taiwan trips, really miss those time!
I miss my friends in taiwan too!
Wait for me taiwan!

After ben's wedding, i or rather we (the same ppl) will be organising e annual sin-taiwan cheer wksp again!
Wheehoo! (ahahhahaha)

Alright, im pretty tired! Had a long trg earlier on!
Off i go!
Goodnights earth!

New year, new resolutions.

2009-01-04T05:10:00.003+08:00

2009!
It's 2009!!

Resolutions!!!

Here's mine:
1. Work harder towards my dream.
2. Lose weight! (42 would be just nice, i guess)
3. Take care of my hair and face.
4.Work super hard for cheer + gym.
5. Be MORE punctual.
6. Love my family + babies even more.
7. SLEEP MORE (:

Ive been attending trgs recently.
To be exact, the last 3 trgs. Heh.
Gleeful i am (:
I want to recover fast/fully!
I want to learn to do btoss layout, pike open!
I want to achieve my double twist, nice front tuck soon!
I want to lock like nvr before.
I cant wait to do handstand.
I cant wait to tumble!
I cant wait to go to gym trg!

Superman is injured :/
-If ure reading this, i want u to noe tt im here for u. Anytime.
-Dont be too disappointed (:
- I will be waiting for u!
-And, lets make GFX the best!

Alrights, bed time.
Nights!

Happy advance new year people.

2008-12-31T04:38:00.002+08:00

Let year 2009 be wonderful!
Let year 2009 watch over me!
Let year 2009 allow miracles to happen on me!
Let year 2009 bring joy to everyone! (plus world peace, world peace, world peace!)

Hopefully teaching in YPS will be super duper fun! Excited!
Went to sch the other day for staff meeting! Saw my P, Vp and other colleagues.
Building looks awesome. Very conducive indeed.

Have been trg a little lately! Feeling good!
Wants to train with my partner soon!
Im all hyped up for it!

I miss bubbles. Shes not back yet.
I love baby and charlie (:
Im tired.
Goodnights!

I MISS BUBBLES.

2008-12-29T01:16:00.005+08:00

Baby will be stayin with aunty for the next few days =//

I miss this very lazy big baby.
She likes to snatch my quilt!
She wakes up later than i do!
(hahhahahaaa)

Brought charlie (bubbles mummy) and baby (charlie another daughter, bubbles' sister) back home.
Baby is so cute! Looks more like her father-snoppy!
But i still miss bubbles =//

random video of charlie and baby!

Alrights, im sleepin early. Got to go to sch tmr =/

YAYAYAYYAYYAYAYYAY.

2008-12-24T00:40:00.002+08:00

Just so awesome!
I tried some stunts today! Including the 'extreme' stunt!
Yayness totally!

But got myself injured again =/
Well, guess i will be a little more patient!
And, i believe, very soon, i will be on the trg grd trg all tt i wan!
Whoohooo!

Happy! Happy!!!!

Restrictions.

2008-12-22T23:10:00.004+08:00

While surfing the net earlier on, i came across this article/post on TEACHERS nowadays.
Obvly it got me all 'kpo-ed' up.

Primary school teacher taking part in a micro bikini contest in Australia.
WOW, what is happening to Singapore?
How could the teacher do this? Talking about moral values. (What has wearing bikini got to do with moral values?!)
Remember, teachers are supposed to be role model.
Teachers should not be wearing such evil beach wear.

In fact, teachers shouldn’t be allowed any social life.
They should be in school setting exam question or marking homework.
And teachers should not be allowed to have tattoo or nose piercing.
The entire education system almost collapsed because of her irresponsible actions. (What an extreme viewpoint?!)

And. . .
It makes me more certain that im not exactly ready to take up this challenge on becoming a role model.
I need my life to be colorful!
The restrictions have definitely overruled my passion twds tching.

Well, we will see how it goes.

Anyway, this also gives me a/an chance/excuse to do stg which i always like besides gymnast/cheer/teach^^ (Hahahaa!)

Whatever!
Alrights.

Anyway. . .
Christmas party at Xy's place isnt tt bad.
Enjoyed myself (:
We had potluck.
Got myself all bloated.
Laughed alot.
Made friend with Xy's dog-Drew. Very cute!
No pic to share. (cus i look super bad! still not used to my this hairstyle! grr!)

Another sleepless night =/
Bored.
I can see algae on me!
Nightssss.

2008-12-18T23:50:00.006+08:00

HELLO YELLOW (:

This is me!
Got my hair cut again (:

Happy 18th bday Melvin!
You're finally legal!
HEH!

Hope u like this '10k watch'!
(...and the bites)

Happy belated bday my dearest Sharon!
Taxi gang rocks!
I love u (:

Hakimi!
Happy belated belated bday!
(Are u 17 or 18 this yr?)
Im sorry! U noe i do love u too (:

I got whacked by ZX and JY.
So mean laaa.

Drink.Drank.Drunk

I totally have no idea how u brought this up Melvin :/

cam-whoring^^

Melvin.Pamela

Zx.Pam

Sharon and i.

Hakim! He has been trying to seduce me the whole night.
Unfortunately, it didnt turn out how he expected it to be.
Im so sorry again, heh.

K.O!

Get well soon JY!

Melvin was tryin hard to make me FAT!

Zhaoxuan.

The 2 bengs.

They said: 'YOz!'

smiles.

I won!

More smiles.

Hahahah, no caption for this.

Blah, goodnights!

Today.

2008-12-16T15:58:00.014+08:00

Hello (:

Couldnt sleep the whole night =S
Spent my time learning how to edit pictures.
Hahhaha! And YAY-ed i finally noe how to edit pictures!
No longer need my sisters to help me edit any more pictures (:

I spent like 4hrs editing these few pictures^^
Hahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah!

my bubbly bubbles.

my 881 sister, bb =p

boy muska, heh.

jy.

shane.juyuan.little sweetie pie

my teammates!

denvers 2008!

pretty pris (:

Still not too shabby right!?!
Heh.
Off to shopping (:
Bbyesssss.

AND. . . I JUST RECEIVED MY POSTING!!!!

All the best to myself (:
Wait for me YPS! (:

BUBBLES!!!
Heh, she just got back from her run with daddy!
Heard tt shes a champion today.
Scare the stray cat out thr out of its wits.
Drove it up the tree, heh!
Good job babyyyy (:

Shes uber tired eh.
Look at her tongue! So kawaii neh! -.-''

She hates to bathe =s

Tada! Clean she is (:

Alrights, alrights, im really gg out already (:
Bbye =/ (sad)